Re: Official Bored at Work / Off-Topic Chat Thread II
I wouldn't call myself an introvert, far from it, I love talking to new people just in case they like the same things I do. I just find keeping up with social nuances and constantly having to pick the intended non-verbal messages amid the many unintended ones physically exhausting, I inevitably end up reading the wrong one and annoying or offending someone be speaking in the wrong tone of voice or making a joke about something to cheer them up when they didn't want that. So I tend to want to bow out because keeping up with everything makes me start thinking things like the following:
"Maybe I was talking too quietly and they didn't hear me?"
"Am I annoying/offending these people and are they being too polite to say?"
"Am I boring these people, and they are being too polite to say, and that's why people aren't talking to me much?"
"Was what I just said really the right thing?"
It eventually gets to the point where I just start thinking "Okay I want to go home, because I might be annoying/offending/boring these people can't it's getting really tiring trying to work out if I am or not, and they're probably too polite to ask me to leave."
Either that or I only turn up to things at a time when people are too drunk to care about that. Drunk people are much easier to read and tend to not give a shit about be blathering on about things that actually interest me. I try to think of myself as passionate about my interested but I do wonder sometimes if I accidentally make myself look more obsessed in an unhealthy way, than just a passionate fan.
I suppose it doesn't help that I have quite a deep voice, and speak very softly and quickly, because I do sound quite harsh and a bit angry when speaking in a loud and slow voice. When speaking loudly I start to worry that people might think I'm shouting at them or being aggressive when I'm just trying to make sure I'm speaking loud and clear. I think it's why I've taken to talking with my hands a lot, and being rather animated when speaking IRL to make sure I'm not being misunderstood and to compensate for my lack of body language, something my friends like to poke fun at me about a lot.
Anyway sorry about putting personal issues on the board. I didn't want to add even more to what is already there.
Originally posted by Caspian
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"Maybe I was talking too quietly and they didn't hear me?"
"Am I annoying/offending these people and are they being too polite to say?"
"Am I boring these people, and they are being too polite to say, and that's why people aren't talking to me much?"
"Was what I just said really the right thing?"
It eventually gets to the point where I just start thinking "Okay I want to go home, because I might be annoying/offending/boring these people can't it's getting really tiring trying to work out if I am or not, and they're probably too polite to ask me to leave."
Either that or I only turn up to things at a time when people are too drunk to care about that. Drunk people are much easier to read and tend to not give a shit about be blathering on about things that actually interest me. I try to think of myself as passionate about my interested but I do wonder sometimes if I accidentally make myself look more obsessed in an unhealthy way, than just a passionate fan.
I suppose it doesn't help that I have quite a deep voice, and speak very softly and quickly, because I do sound quite harsh and a bit angry when speaking in a loud and slow voice. When speaking loudly I start to worry that people might think I'm shouting at them or being aggressive when I'm just trying to make sure I'm speaking loud and clear. I think it's why I've taken to talking with my hands a lot, and being rather animated when speaking IRL to make sure I'm not being misunderstood and to compensate for my lack of body language, something my friends like to poke fun at me about a lot.
Anyway sorry about putting personal issues on the board. I didn't want to add even more to what is already there.
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