Hate my life

[Balgas]

Good God. Buzzed right now. Hating my life. Why is it that no matter how hard I try to find someone special that it always ends in defeat. I am not a bad person, in fact I have a twin brother who is very much similar to me in core qualities. We both respect others ways of life, don't judge, and look for the best in other people. Yet always it seems when I meet someone they are a piece of crap. For example tonight I saw a guy for the second time, we hung out for a couple of hours, then we went up to his room and he wouldn't even kiss me. When I asked him what he wanted out of me he wouldn't even tell me, then ended up getting all pissed off and I left without even knowing what the fuck was the point of me even going over there...

WTF man..I don't even see the point in living right now. I'm not suicidal so don't start preaching about how precious life is, I already know...Yet every time I get bitch slapped in the face by another person telling me I'm not good enough for them. Well FUCK YOU!!! I am good enough, I don't lie, I don't cheat, I don't steal, what the hell else do you want out of me?!?!?!??!??? When it comes to relationships I give them my all! I give the person my trust, heart and very soul pretty much!! Yet always it doesn't even fucking matter!! Trample on me, spit on me, do your worst cuz FUCK YOU!!!!! I'll still be the better person, I won't holla back and tell you how much I fucking hate you cuz that would only make it worse!! I'll keep it inside and deal with it in a better and more constructive way!! I'll make something beautiful out of all the hate you've given me! People will feel my pain and empathize with me!! Because I am more than just the shell that you see! I am a human being with a soul and inner being that you couldn't even begin to comprehend!! The internet may be a vast and infinite place but there will be at least one person who can understand how I feel!!!!

In conclusion I know that I will carry on and that this will make me a stronger person and it WILL better my life!!! I feel all of you that feel as I do and you know what, you gotta keep carrying on cuz you are the only person you can rely on!! Keep on keepin' on!! Life is what you make of it, don't let the losers bring you down!! They are only bringing you down cuz they hate themselves!!! Keep it real and I love all you people here at ffxionline!!! You guys are awesome and have a thirst for life that keeps me going!!!!!!!!!!! Love you all!!

Balgas~~

[Kailea]

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Yet every time I get bitch slapped in the face by another person telling me I'm not good enough for them.

They where not worth your time to begin with it seems, so dont let it get to you

[Balgas]

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Thanks dude!! I'm pretty sure I've seen your name before in the years that I've been here, I'm just so upset right now...but you are the third person to tell me that, so obviously it is good advice that I should take...thanks for being at least 1 person that cares!! This makes me so happy!!!!!!

[Grizzlebeard]

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You know, I'm sure there are forums better suited to posting adolescent dating angst on. If you're expecting a deluge of hug-giving carebears here you'll most likely be disappointed.

[Feba]

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0/10

[Icemage]

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Um. This sort of stuff is probably better suited for facebook/myspace/blog than here. I know it's the Off-Topic forum, but still - this is the wrong place to look for positive reinforcement in your life.


Icemage

[Mhurron]

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I hate your life too, perhaps there is some sort of permanent solution to both our problems.

[DakAttack]

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8/10

Points deducted for originality.

[Romyro]

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I hate your life too, perhaps there is some sort of permanent solution to both our problems.

is it bad that this made me laugh pretty hard?

[Aksannyi]

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Probably, but it got me, too.

[cidbahamut]

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This right here is why I have absolutely no motivation to go looking for a girlfriend. Too much emotional baggage involved with having a significant other and when it doesn't work out it's even worse.

[Balfree]

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I always blame it on perception and judgement. We must be sure of our decisions in life, and often we judge things by the pros and cons and we tend to go for quantity over quality, or we're so enticed by one pro that we overlook many cons.

Its a brutal way to look at it but if we jump for quantity over quality we're simply putting a timer on the duration of the good times.

In any case, life is to be lived and not mathematized. These things only make you stronger, you need time to mourn for yourself and then you need to recover and do it all over again, eventually all will be well. Also this won't be the last time it happens. Its impossible for one to think rationally when were feeling this way, but the sooner we accept that mourning for ourselves is just another process of life, the sooner we come to terms with how the world works.

Its a bit like hangovers. You had funtimes, and now you hurt all over and just want to die and you swear you wont touch another drink. Then you recover and laugh the whole event out of your system, and it happens again.

Me? I stopped drinking too frequently.

Drinking in special ocasions is a lot more satisfactory than all the time anyway, right? I think the same rule can be applied to pretty much everything in life.

[DakAttack]

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This right here is why I have absolutely no motivation to go looking for a girlfriend. Too much emotional baggage involved with having a significant other and when it doesn't work out it's even worse.

No risk, no reward.

[Ufgt]

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Baggage is hot. Am I alone in this view of the opposite gender?

[Grizzlebeard]

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Baggage is hot. Am I alone in this view of the opposite gender?

Probably.

Baggage is what you tolerate to ensure you get laid. If the getting laid part is secondary to the baggage then maybe volunteer to the Samaritan's and take a box of Kleenex.