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There was a Chinese girl there named Judy. I make less than 30K a year and make a living trying to teach an adult 3 times my age not to walk into incoming traffic. Think I got a shot with her?!
@Ketaru - I'm totally a functioning alcoholic. I mean, not seriously. I don't need to drink. But my roommate keeps the bar stocked, so I'm welcome to it any time I like. And since I'm not going out, and I have nothing better to do, why the fuck not? But I get along equally well with people who drink and people who don't. So we'd probably get along fine. I just like to joke.
@Aks - Despite this discussion of breasts, which I find to be very gross (no offense, again), I agree with regard to coming of age, and feeling more comfortable in your own skin. I know when I was in my late teens and early 20s, I never felt I had anything in common with people my own age. I always liked guys who were older. And I never felt comfortable in my own skin. These days? I finally feel like, hey! I'm not a bad looking guy. Which is a huge step up from "[Murphie], you're an ugly troll!", which dominated my earlier years.
edit: UNFORTUNATELY, now I've got guys in their early 20s and such all like "Hey mans, you are hawt, plz 2 b my BF?" and I am like "nothanx."
No worries. I personally love breasts myself, even though I am quite straight and very much in love with the male portion of our species. Yum. Men. But I just think breasts have a lovely shape. God did not fuck up when he made them, that's for sure. As opposed to balls, which aren't pretty looking. I enjoy them, don't get me wrong, but they're not exciting to look at really.
No really. I happen to think it's one of the cool things about being around this age - you start to appreciate who you are more and become more accepting of your good qualities and your not-so-good qualities. I mean I still have my normal human insecurities but I'm also a lot more comfortable in my own skin and I don't try too hard to fit in with what people seem to expect that I should be.
Wife and I were listening to this last night:
I think we have pretty realistic and accepting images of ourselves and eachother, but I wonder if (I say this half-jokingly) we ought to be lying to eachother more. Because it's great and comforting to be known and accepted for who I really am, but at the same time isn't it great when someone believes you're better than you really are and gives you the opportunity to live up to that better version of yourself? That's the biggest thing I miss about FFXI to be honest. I knew personally at least two red mages on Lakshmi who put me to shame skill-wise but my shell thought I was the best damn rdm on the whole server, and I swear that belief made me better by itself. Ultimately it's why I quit. I felt I had become a better red mage than I was a human being and I needed to right the balance, but it's just different here in real life, you know?
Now I'm rambling and sappy and I haven't even poured myself a drink yet. I'm gonna go for a beer right now.
I know what you mean. My WHM was all the things I couldn't be myself. And then people would give me shit about WHM and cures (jokingly) but because I self-identified with my WHM so much - a lot more than any normal person should - it really got to me. That's another reason on the long laundry list of reasons I quit.
I would be lying if I say I don't miss the game because sure I do, but I also don't, because I know what I turned into with that game.
I'm definitely still achieving IRL. And I suspect the reason I keep coming back to FFXI is because I have never felt that I'm really all that good at it (though I have received my fair number of compliments).
Man, 50-65 on RDM. Is there anything better, guys? You feel as though you have the entire world at your feet, and that you're conducting a symphony with your spells. Do you know what I mean? If I could recapture that with another job...man.
You know at the end of the .. third(?) season of The Guild where Syd has a psychotic break and all of Codex's personality traits start to bleed through? That was sortof me for a while. Lago was not quite a dissociated personality but definitely a distinct other side of me, and when that side bled through I was a much better person. I miss that state of affairs a bit.
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Man, 50-65 on RDM. Is there anything better, guys? You feel as though you have the entire world at your feet, and that you're conducting a symphony with your spells. Do you know what I mean? If I could recapture that with another job...man.
Indeed. Threading in free floating spells with the rhythm of your interweaving cycles felt like conducting a canon.
Totally agree about the rdm spell casting. It was calming to me even though it was stressful at NM's and shit. I knew what I needed to do next and had a rhythm to do it in.
Originally posted by Feba
But I mean I do not mind a good looking man so long as I do not have to view his penis.
Originally posted by Taskmage
God I hate my periods. You think passing a clot through a vagina is bad? Try it with a penis.
Originally posted by DakAttack
...I'm shitting dicks out of my eyeballs in excitement for the next bestgreating game of all time ever.
Finally got up off my ass and got that beer. I feel like getting smashed. Wish I was in the same room with you guys. That might get inappropriate in a hurry, though.
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