Official bored at work / just shooting the shit / no rails to derail thread

[Mog]

Re: Official bored at work / just shooting the shit / no rails to derail thread

When I was a kid they used anything handy. LOL Some of the things I remember were shoes, wire hangers (which she actually broke while hitting me), wooden spoons (which if it broke she'd get even madder and get another), irons (and not the whimpy ones now, these were heavy mofos!), rubber garden hose (again much thicker than todays, trust me), frying pans, etc. There was a time when we went to the lake and I wandered off for hours. They wanted to leave but couldn't till they found me. When they did, my dad was so pissed that he made me walk across the hot coals they dumped out of the grill. Ahhhhh, those wonderful childhood memories....

My mother used to use bitters on me. I would have much rather had lemon juice. LOL

My mother spanked my ass with a wooden spoon when I did something really really bad. (forgot what it was) Needless to say, my ass was greater than the spoon. All I heard was a KA'CHING! and when she looked at it, half the spoon was missing.

[TheGrandMom]

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Hey, at least you've been trained to win if you end up on Fear Factor or some shit.

OMG...I lol'd!

My mother and I are barely on speaking terms now, but back when I was in school, I may as well as just stayed out of her way.

She wasn't a hitter. No, no no no no. My mother is responsible for the severe depression I've suffered for 27 years, the depression that still makes me feel as though I'll never amount to anythig, I'm worthless, I'm a terrible person, a terrible mother, I'll never succeed, etc. Every day I struggle to face living, due to not only the way she belittled me, but used every opportunity to tell me how much better than me my brothers are.

Do you know why I joined the Army? I did it because my brothers did, and I was looking for some shred of approval. How many times do you think my family visited me when I was in the Army, and how many times did they visit my brothers?

I don't talk to anyone in my immediate family anymore except for my father. My brothers have made it clear that they don't give a damn about me, and my mother's interest in me lies only in the fact that I have her only grandchildren.

I will kill myself before I allow myself to become her. I do not have problems with light corporal punishment, but I will never make my kids feel like strangers in their own house, like coming out of the room is something to fear for what she'll say next. I hate my mother for what she's done to me. And I'll be DAMNED if I will let my kids grow up feeling that way.

I don't care what anyone says if they see me slapping my son's hand or something. A little slap will do a LOT less long-term damage than the verbal abuse I put up with for 20+ years.

I lived this nightmare too. I was my fathers favorite and she was divorced from him. So anything I did was wrong and she belittled me every minute of every f'in day. You know whats the funniest part of it all? I didn't want to spend time with my father, she made me and then she'd be mad I went. Top it off with the fact that he sexually abused from the time I was 2 and also let his buddies abuse me too. And the frosting is the physical abuse. Yep, my life was a cake but you know what......fuck them. I cut them out of my life and moved on. I've developed a dialouge with my mother again and we get along ok. But I didn't get along with my father and he's now passed on and I could give a shit. If you sit in a bowl of pity, they win and I refuse to let them win.

My mother spanked my ass with a wooden spoon when I did something really really bad. (forgot what it was) Needless to say, my ass was greater than the spoon. All I heard was a KA'CHING! and when she looked at it, half the spoon was missing.

And then she'd blame you because she broke the god damn spoon!! LOL Furious, she storm back into the kitchen and grab another.....or any other spatula type equipment....and come beat you some more! Right!?

[Aksannyi]

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TGM it's more than just self-pity though (okay though some of it really is, I'm not gonna lie), I have been diagnosed with depression but I have no insurance so what can I do. Just deal, I guess. On the darkest days I just try to rememer those little boys who love me and depend on me ... :/

[TheGrandMom]

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I don't have insurance that covers it either. Hell, they think they are generous giving me 9 friggin migraine pills a month and those are gone in a week. I hate insurance companies. >< Trust me, I know depression...we are old friends. My kids were a huge part of my every day survival. I kept plugging along for them too. But you know what happened? They grew up and didn't need me like that anymore and moved out. (Ya and now they are back. You'd think that was a good thing...NOT!) Then what do you keep getting up for everyday? You need to start plugging away for other reasons than your children.

One thing you can do is call some of the local hotlines in your area. See if they have information about some meetings you can attend or just use the hotline itself. Just like AA or ACoA there are meetings for people with depression issues that are free. It's good to talk and its good to get out with others. You need to make yourself strong and start telling yourself you ARE a good person/mother and that you DESERVE to be happy. It's your right! Claim it!

[Aksannyi]

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You need to make yourself strong and start telling yourself you ARE a good person/mother and that you DESERVE to be happy. It's your right! Claim it!

Thank you. I needed to hear that.

[TheGrandMom]

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It's the truth! Believe it! And don't let anyone make you think or feel differently.....including YOURSELF!

[WovenDarkness]

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It's the truth! Believe it! And don't let anyone make you think or feel differently.....including YOURSELF!

That's probably the greatest part of the battle. Quoted because it's spot on.

[Jarre]

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One of the greatest things is to beleive in yourself. Every single person can be what they always wanted to be, they just need to beleive in themselves and ignore any put downs others may put on you. It is so easy to beleive the shit that some people come out with to put you down, you just got to get your arse into gear and show them you can do things, you are a good mother, you can earn yourself a living and you can pass college. There is only one direction to go now and that is up. You need to show your critics that they are wrong about you. Now don't get me wrong its not an easy path, but working through it and doing the best you can and make something of yourself is the greatest achievment anyone can make, you don't have to be 00% successful, just make an improovement.

Many of us here would just want to give you a hug and say things will get better, but unfortunately theres a slight thing of 3000+ miles for me and I don't think i can squeeze down the phone line. I'm afraid you'll just have to put up with a virtual Hug.

As for the medication, granted here in the UK we have long waiting lists for certain treatments etc., but on the NHS we do get prescribed medication which does cost, but thankfully not much (£7.50 a perscription ($15) ) Its not free by all means as i have to pay £120 ($240) a month in national insurance that pays for the NHS. I'd hate us to go to insurance, as it gives them to much selective power on who to treat. i.e. they only treat the ones with money. for a 1st world country, I think that is apawlling. everytime I hear about more and more problems it just makes me think that this projection of a powerful country really only cares about money and power rather than the people that live there.

[Feba]

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my dad was so pissed

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand that's when it becomes abuse.

[Callisto]

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Omg 2 Days Until Vacation Get Me The Eff Out Of Work

Edit: Oh it's on, me and the admins are gonna have a breakdance battle until they fix my abilities to type in all caps like a moron.

[Feba]

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NICE CAPSLOCK U GOTS THAR.


obligitory lowercase.

[Murphie]

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Best five days ever. Now for the worst three days ever.

[Callisto]

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NICE CAPSLOCK U GOTS THAR.


obligitory lowercase.

THANKS FEBA I THINK I FIGURED IT OUT

[Feba]

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Best five days ever. Now for the worst three days ever.

I just stayed up for over 24 hours straight. Right now I'm so out of it it's like the best ever ever.
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[Callisto]

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I miss all-nighters. And I cannot friggin wait til the third, our somewhat-now-annual impromptu dodgeball tournament draws near!
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