Solipsism

[Feba]

I don't really feel comfortable talking about it right now, and I'm a little on the giddy side from telling the people I do trust about it, but I feel like about the luckiest person on the planet right now.


Seriously, the amount of luck involved here is staggering. I almost don't believe it's not a prank or a bad joke. There's just so many different variables involved...

[Malacite]

Re: Solipism

So... you firmly believe that everyone else is wrong about everything? Or.... ?

The title is missleading.

[Feba]

Re: Solipism

Solipsism (Latin: solus, alone + ipse, self) is the philosophical idea that "My mind is the only thing that exists". Solipsism is an epistemological or metaphysical position that knowledge of anything outside the mind is unjustified. The external world and other minds cannot be known and might not exist.

wikipedia

[Malacite]

Re: Solipism

Meaning you're essentially rejecting all others >_>

[Raydeus]

Re: Solipism

It sounds like everyday's Feba to me.

[ItazuraNhomango]

Re: Solipism

Solipism

I gather you mean "Solipsism" instead?

[Icemage]

Re: Solipsism

*a quick wave of the magic wand and presto! We have a properly spelled title!*

Now back to our regularly scheduled off-topic programming.



Icemage

[DieselBoy09]

Re: Solipsism

If anything its him saying that something wonderful just happened, and the title might mean refer to his lack of divulging the information to the rest of us.

"That the experiences of a given person are necessarily private to that person."

I'm probably completely wrong though. Either way, Feba, I sincerely hope something wonderful has transpired in your life.

[Feba]

Re: Solipsism

No, It's mainly because I'm having a hard time coming up with anything else to explain it.

If this isn't my imagination, I don't see how my will could be reflected on reality like that. Unless I'm a god, but that would just be silly!

[Taskmage]

Re: Solipsism

Most religions have something to explain it, whether it be the favor of God, your energy going out into the universe and returning to you, etc. I like solipsism, but not in the Haruhi way of the creator being an entity within the universe that's essentially seperate from it. I believe in something more animistic, defining God as the aggregate conciousness of all the minds in the universe.

[DakAttack]

Re: Solipsism

Feba is on drugs.

[Feba]

Re: Solipsism

Feba is on Tums. TUMS-TUMTUMTUMS!

ficksed.


I'm a little bit calmer now, but anyway, the basics of the story is:

Was thinking about a close friend of mine from childhood a few days ago, been missing them this week. Yesterday, I got a stomach ache, and my mom went to pick up Tums and Pepto Bismol. At the store, she ran into said friend (and her mom), and they've moved back to town.

I mean, think about the odds there.

THIS WEEK, I think about some people I haven't even seen in SIX YEARS, and start to miss them. I probably haven't even thought of them in a year, I know I haven't missed them in at least four. So let's say it's a 1 in 200 chance as far as weeks go.

Then, I get a stomach ache. Without having something to tie it to this happens probably once a month, so 1/30.

We didn't have any medicine on hand, which happens about twice a year, so let's say 1/150.

The specific times that my mom and them were at Wal-mart, assuming someone goes to Wal-mart for an hour once a week, and considering that the Wal-mart is on the other side of town from where they live now...

I mean the odds here just seem incredibly high. Either way though, I'm glad I'll get to see them again soon.

[Yellow Mage]

Re: Solipsism

Well, congratulations on meeting your friend again.

I know exactly how you might feel. I have been in the missing of a childhood friend, myself, as well.

I haven't been so lucky as you, though.

I've been missing this person for the past . . . six years, I'm estimating. Six years ago, I forgot her for about two, and before that I missed her for about a year.

Though, my memory is already a bit messed up, so trying to remember when I remembered somebody can be a bit difficult to get precisely.

For about the first two years of the six year period, I put her in my prayers: I just wanted to see her again, if nothing else, than for closure. However, I think I've been directing my energies the wrong way: I wound up sort of hostilely taken back to Florida, where I happened to last see her in my childhood. I even wound up in the exact same area . . . she wasn't there, at least to the best of my knowledge of the time. Which sucks for me, having wound up in Florida, as I developed a distaste for temperate climates: I prefer the cold weather.

I . . . loved her. And, in my childhood naivete, I swore to myself I'd never love another as I loved her, at least not until I can settle things with her. It's a promise I still maintain to this day: a promise is a promise, after all.

Call me a fool, but I at least want to know of her fate before I love another the same way. If I don't, I'd feel I'd be betraying myself. It . . . wouldn't be right.

Anyways, I haven't seen her in about nine years, all because of a series of complicated and unfortunate custody events. I don't know if she even remembers me.

There, you have it: I poured my heart and guts into this one simple forum post, and for the same reason Feba did more or less the same thing: the anomity of the internets. None of you know me as anything more than a fool who goes under the guise of the Yellow Mage.

Know this: I've only recently been this open about this. Only one person who knows me in real life knows this story and, more or less, its detail, and its only because he had a similar experience, and I think I can trust him. Betraying my trust would be of no benefit to him, anyways. He offered some advice to help, and gave some advice for what to do if I ever did see her again . . .

I want to see her again . . .

[Feba]

Re: Solipsism

Well I mean, I generally bring things here not because it's anonymous, but because I do consider you friends. I don't really have any friends IRL, and the one person I actually would consider a friend (practically family) I've already told.

My internet anonymity is about as powerful here as using my real name. I'm not really known about or searchable (yet, anyway), but pretty much anyone that knows me IRL also has my internet contacts (AIM/Email/etc)

Even if I can't reach out and touch people, I can consider them friends. I mean, I wouldn't be QUITE as open about it with people I know IRL because I'm not like that IRL, and I have a hard time trusting people.

That said, I have absolutely no idea how to actually treat things like that, so /comfort

[DakAttack]

Re: Solipsism

I want to lol, but out of respect I will not. Good relationships, friend, chum, or otherwise, are hard to come by.

Luckily for me I still have a few childhood friends around. I know others aren't so fortunate.